suported words is it so hard to say?????

supported words is it so hard to say out??? whenever ppl do something, they r searching for some supported words or at least feel being appreciated.. but in the end, pour a big big big cold water.. whatever the fire is having before this is being flame out.. so what other courage to do a better things.. i'm not expecting a good words or praise from you; never heard a praise from you either after all these years.. just wanna being feel appreciated after what have been done even it turn out bad or out of expected.. is this so hard to achieve??? all of the sudden i just wanna say out those *&(*$^£&%(")()(£&%"$^*

ARGH!!!!!!! haih~~~ feeling being not appreciated is really bad feeling and discourage from doing anything.. people~~~ dun do tat... said something that courage able or at least appreciate what have been done to you.. then the world wont be too much of people that would be think negatively or looking for death~~~

after working life

after been in the working life for almost 3 months now, i can feel the tension coming in. every month and day, those expenses.. i really wonder with such little salary, how to survive in this high-tech living standard??? just curious.. besides that, i also can feel that i loneliness in it.. after working life started, it is getting harder to meet up with frens.. going crazy and wild with frens.. everyone have their own part to play in their own life. everyone have their own life to go on.. i start to strongly agree that studying life is the best life ever in our whole life..

i can see one and the only one i guess form working life, is getting SALARY!!! but somehow, before we can get this, we need to work really hard to please our boss to let them see how good we are. other than that, i can see the other bad side, such as the various type of people that exist in this world. really vary from a very good to very evil~~~~ scary~~~ as for me, i really thank god that i meet those good people and helpful people around me.. THANK GOD!!!

memories

i dunno what make my mood to become like this today.. all of the sudden, i miss those times when i was studying at kampar.. those times with my housemate.. those time with my classmate.. actually all the memories seems like just fresh from my mind.. seems everything just happen overnite.. never thought i already study for 3 years at a place that barely people know about it.. i miss so so so much..

eventhough rushing assignment is really suffocating and irritating at that time.. but when i rethink back, that is the most golden memories as a student.. haha.. haih... never thought my life as student had ended just like tat..  my journey as student is not tat as remarkable as others which some of my frens had achieved something and lots of adventure.. as for me, the journey is just so so only..

if i can retake back those times, i really really will treasure those moments with my lovely frens.. I MISS U GUYS SO SO SO MUCH... how i wish i can see u guys everyday.. so that i can share my time and thoughts together..

黃小琥-沒那麼簡單

i want to share this music video clip.. because somehow my mood right now is what the lyrics is saying right now.. ITS NOT THAT EASY~~~ to do anything.. hmmm....

Life Partner is a NEED or is a MUST???

Everyone would search for their own life partner whom they will be going to live forever with you. But searching for life partner is a MUST or is a NEED?? The difference between 'NEED' and 'MUST' is not really much. A 'NEED' is to have a life partner by their side during their hard times or happy times. While, 'MUST' is a tradition or the norms of the society to have the life partner by their side. Some people would easily and meet him/her life partner. But some would find some way either through agency or religious.

If he/she doesn't have a life partner at some age, there would be some so-called 'old lady' or some nick name to be labelled to them. When you have arrive at some age, most people would ask you, 'Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?' This is a very common question being asked by most of aunties. But do they know that sometimes is not they don't want but they couldn't find one. Or because they don't think they would want one. Having someone special by their side at all times, no matter happy or sad times, is really a good feeling. Maybe it is the timing for all this to happen.

Sometimes I think whether my thought is a 'NEED' or 'MUST'. Sometimes, I really looking someone to talked to, no matter it is happy or sad moments. But, sometimes I would think, I better look after myself on my own. Compare on relying on others to do something, we better do it on our own. Maybe some people would not agree on what I'm thinking. But, this what I've been thinking and can made conclusion on.

Anyway, I would like grab the opportunity to said HAPPY VALENTINE, to everyone sweet couple in the world. Valentine's Day is just around the corner. So, for those couple out there, please do treasure the moments together and for those who are still single, don't worry about it. YOU will have the time, it is just the matter of time.


 So, what do you think? Do you think life partner is a 'NEED' or a 'MUST'? I mean life partner here is the person who will be by your side all the time and forever.

working life dillema..

this year Chinese New Year has little different compare to last year. Now my student role has ended and had joined with the white collar worker. if compare with previous year, i would waited and hope for holiday. when holiday come, there would lots and tonnes of homework to be done. now, there would not be any homework, just the real life of working that need to do. after been working as officer for about half month, my life is just full of numbers and codes. 

now there is another position appear to me. the salary and benefit really attract me the most. just the job description not really attract me. hmm.. seems i better to continue with my current job. but the job salary and benefit really attractive.. hmmm... 

my first salary...

after i started work last week, i have less time to update my blog... at first, the work is really confusing and headache... but till today, i started to understand and enjoy the work.. yesterday, i heard my colleagues said will get salary.. hehe.. then i checked today, the salary is really in.. hehe.. I GOT MY FIRST SALARY FOR MY FIRST JOB!!! hehe.. even though is not the full amount salary they offer me.. hehe..

mixed feelings

today i have mixed feeling.. early morning, after i take bath i realized that my spec has a little crack.. haih.. such a sad thing.. after that, got news that my car has finish repair.. but when i go get my car, then it came small problem again.. then need to wait for tmoro afternoon only settle.. haih.. then, just now thought wanna go make complaint for my digi statement for last month.. mana tau, they dun wan to make complaint for me.. plus, i could use 't' alphabet to communicate.. haih.. make me so angry..

luckily today not yet bad luck dao..  got one good news to make myself happy.. hehe.. i get myself employed!!!! hehe... i'm so happy.. hehe.. haha...

DECISION

Today I had made a miserable decision.. Today I get my first job offer (dun count for part time job)... YIPPEE!!!! eventhough is my second choice, but it came to me first instead of the first wan.. but now the problem come.. location and transport.. the job place is quite a distance from my home and the place is quite deep inside.. no public transport would go into there.. so, i have no choice other than driving to der.. the real problem and issues has come.. my home only hav one car.. which if i drive to work, then my mum would not be able to use it.. if my mum use it, then i would hav difficulty to go for work.. haih.. now i really feel headache about it..

NOW, all i really need to do is find a car!!! CAR!! I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW!!!!

Results released

today my final semester result is released.. it come out as not what i expected.. but then i should appreciate on what i got.. supposingly i wanted to graduate with second upper.. but it ends up i graduate with second lower.. a little dissappointed with myself.. if we see on other side of it, i OFFICIALLY GRADUATE!!!! hehe.. i just hope that my results aint gonna affect much in my job finding.. To all my classmates and housemates, i hope they get to graduate!!!!

actually, this morning i went for my another interview which i feel quite good hav a chance.. just the working place is little far from my home... but then if this job called me first than the first wan.. i really dunno how to choose it.. mayb i will choose according to their benefits given.. hmmm...

now i just hope that i could get a job and earn money.. rather than staying at home and doing nothing..

Interview session

Today I had my very first interview for full time job. Its a great experience. The interview had me get more interested in working with them. During the interview, when they explaining my job scope and what i could expect when working, suddenly i can imagine the condition where i will be working there. anyway, i would keep my option open, since there is another interview will be held on Monday. Just see what will be. However, today interview need to wait for another 2 to 3 weeks which means almost Chinese New Year already. Plus, there will be another interview session going on and the interviewer would be higher level management. Heard also kind of scary.

Now, my mind need to prepare for second interview. For second interview, I would not put too much  expectation and hope on it because it kind of not that far and not that close location. I need to drive there in order to get into the place. The only thing now is my first interview would be priorities by me, except second interview give me higher salary and better benefit. Then, I would consider working there.

It is a good experience though. never thought my first ever interview would be like this. He.. he... Arrive early and sitting in the car doing nothing... I keep my finger cross on the result..

At last~~~

At last, today I got call from one company, Tan Chong Motor Sdn Bhd. Even though, its a 5.5 working day, I just give it a try (Why not trying??). Since other job application I send still have no news yet. At first, the call just asked about my interest into the job. Then later of the day, they called again for inviting me to go for interview at its HQ at Jln Ipoh. I'm so thrilled and happy at that time. Before this, I was wondering want to buy a car from Nissan. Now, if I successful work there, then I would have a chance to buy their vehicles at lower price. Hehe.. (Hopefully~~ **Praying hard**)

But all this mood was spoil when I was started cleaning my room. I don't know what happen to my mum today. Suddenly become so annoying and nagging. Keep nagging on this and that. I was not blaming her, it was just how to put all my things into my little room????!!! But at last, I manage to put all my stuff into my little room. All my boxes end up stacked up high above my cupboard. (Hopefully it won't fall down during my sleeping time..)

At last, all my stuff is clean and packed into boxes, and put accordingly. Which some of it, I have no 'eye see' and just chuck all my stuff in. Now, my mind just thinking of the job interview on this Saturday. What to wear?? What will be interview like?? How will I answer their question??? I wonder if really got the job, how would it be working there??? All this questions just pop out inside my mind right now. It make me more and more excited for this Saturday. I can't wait for it to come.

No call??!!!

I have been waiting those calls for days and days. But, it didn't seem to ring. I wonder why... I become more and more desperate to get a job. I'm not sure is it because of out of money or really want to enter to working life. 

As for me, working life may be seem as bad as I heard. But still, inside my heart at one corner of it, I know that it would be a hard and long road to go. Still, this road will soon be taken, its a matter of time only. 

I just really hope that I could receive some calls by tomorrow or few days later. I really don't want to stay at home and do nothing. Soon, my mum sure be nagging and nagging of being jobless. Plus, if I stay at home, she will be sure ask me to do this and that which I'm not really want to do. Hmmm.. 

Praying hard to get the calls... *Praying hard*

Opening...

Finally i have open my own blogged. I've been want to open this blog for some time, it just a matter of time only. I guess, after this, I need to be actively write blog..

Today the weather is still the same, cloudy and suddenly changed to sunny. I already back to my hometown for one week. I still lots of boxes to unpack. While unpacking, my mind keep flashing back those times in my whole university life. It was an awesome experience. I want to said to all my house-mates and classmates a BIG THANK YOU to be part of my university life.

While unpacking, I was so envy of my friends that got calls for the interview of job. Suddenly, I think back of what I have done to my whole life. I really did nothing much for my life until now. Without my realization, I did not have a clear goal of my life. I think I should have one now. Need to have a deep deep think on it....

I think that's all for my opening post of my blog.